Chronic Pitty Party or Maybe Bad Mood- I Need Advice!!!

If you haven not noticed my happy day goal did not
make it to far and came to a halting
screech of an end.

Why?

I have not clue.
Im starting to think that I am in a chronic pitty party
or
maybe bad mood the last little while.

Why?

Again I dont know.

Ill admit the the last 28 months
have been the most challenging of my life.

Ill admit that sense April I feel like
my life is full of dead ends and being passed over once again.

I honestly do not know how I got in this attitude place.

Whats funny is I can be super optimistic about
almost everything but the really
personal hard challenges in my life.


I know that the bad days will come to an and.

I know that my Heavenly Father loves me.

But honestly right now I feel discouraged
and in a chronically bad mood/pitty party.

So what now?

I have no clue.

I know there are things beyond my control
and
then things I can do something about.

I am going to take the advice
I heard last weekend about setting goals
and
making a list of what you can change
and
work towards and just let the other stuff go.

I am going to this and set at doing it.

But I need help and advice
on how to get out of this
Chronic Pitty Party or Maybe Bad Mood.

I am honestly so sick of how I feel
that I will trust any input and try anything at this point!!

I need help and feed back!!!

Happy Day 27...My Body Breaking

Ok it doesn't really make me happy but at least my body knows that I will always push through pain and push my body. I started having tendinitis in my groin this spring. I got a cortisone shot and have been doing physical therapy. But I have kept running, biking, training, etc. Well the last couple of weeks my shine has been acting up and killing. I thought it was shin splints. But this week i did something unheard of for me...I went to the dr for the pain (without it being around for months to years) and the official ruling was a stress fracture!! So no running for at least a month and coming back slowly and smartly when I start running again. I think this was my body's way of saying give me a brake!!

Happy Day 26.....Sunshine and Summertime

Each day I sit at work and stare blissfully out at the summer days and wish I was not at work. But fear not I ate my lunch on the picnic tables. Friday will be a cherry hill day. Monday the 4th. Next week less crazy so I can lay out or visit cherry hill after work. If I lived by a beach I would be going every day. ;)

On Being An Adult

I love being an adult. I love the freedom. I love the confidence of knowing I am providing for my self and making my own life. But....

Sometimes I don't like being am adult. It can be hard and draining .

I dont like the unknown. I don't like being in the spot I am in. I don't like that I don't know if and when I will get married. What a said marriage will bring.

I dont like that the current reality and situation is such that I am approaching and still single. I want to move out. I dont have the income to support my self fully. Two years ago it wasn't an issue I was dating and had been in two relationships where I thought there was a future so I wasn't to worried about it. But now I am.

Trying to find a higher paying job and a good career path is hard and wearing on the soul. Not knowing the next steps to take is hard. Do I go back to school? Do I get licensed? Do I just don't care and stay? Do I move with in the state employment? Do I move to a new state?

It's just so overwhelming and hard when you don't have a hint at what the future will bring and when.

Happy Day 25....Little Simple Things

For day 25 as a celebration for getting this far and being fairly consistent I want to celebrate little things that make me happy.
- my guitar and the piano
- sunny days
- music
- competition
- reading
- the scriptures
- going public with goals
- orange leaf frozen yogurt

And so much more but it is now bed time.

Happy Day 24...Friends

Yes Ill admit it Im addicted to the movie Friends!!! All my siblings are and the best part is we break out and start quoting the show!!!

Introducing the 30 Day Challenge!!!

My friend introduced me to the coolest challenge ever...the 30 day challenge. How it works is choose something once a week you want to add to your life or change in life and then stick to it daily for 30 days. Then introduced a new challenge every 30 days.

Challenge número UNO:
Five step healthy diet:
1) No daily treats during work!!
2) No cheating with Weight Watchers
3) No dairy
4) Fruits/veggies with every meal!!
5) No fried foods