A Year of Kendra

Ok so Ihave been doing a lot of thinking these days, which can be scary I know. Ill admit at times things just feel a little off. I have been feeling as if I am waiting and waiting while nothing seems to be happening. Ill admit I have been feeling like I am just trying to hold things together. Never a good feeling. The funny thing about feeling this way is that there are days, times and moments where I feel so overcome by the spirit and I know I am doing the right thing in my own life.

Well this past weekend I took a mental health day and spent a lot of time thinking, praying and studying. Well the conclusion I came to was just that I have been spending to much time waiting. I want things but am affraid to go after them. I have been playing it safe, afraid to get hurt, and as a result I have just been waiting. I dont know when but I went from creeping along as I waited to simply standing still.

Once I knew that the problem was that I am waiting around and not living proactivly. The question was what to do about it. As I pondered this question I ran across Elder Bedner's talk "Ask in Faith." In his talk Elder Bedner mentioned how praying in faith is not just praying for what you would like, it is acting upon what we are asking for.

As I pondered this talk that answer came. I need to enjoy and live life, stop waiting. Things will happen and fall in place as I do so. But life is not going to come and find me. So what did I decide to do? Simple live a year of Kendra. I got the idea from a girl in my ward who said she was sick of how life was going and decided she was going to make the coming year the best one yet. She spent a year doing anything she wanted to do but lived the year as if it was her best yet. I loved that idea and it has stuck with me. So that is exactly what I am going to do.

I did decide that starting mid-way through the year seems kind of funny. So I decided to start my year of Kendra on November 15, yep my birthday. But here is the thing I dont know what I want to do yet. All I know is I want it to be the best most adventourous year, as if it were my last yet. Here is where I need help, I need suggestions. If you had one year to live what would you do?