Whirl Wind of a Year

Have you ever stopped and paused to look at your life. If you haven well you should. Ill admit I have been doing it a lot the last couple of weeks. And wow what an eye opening experience it is. A few things learned by doing so: 1) Heavenly Father is the most divine creator and guider of our life. His path and plan though harder is much more beautiful. 2) How quickly things can change. Why do we stress tomorrow can easily bring a change of life we never expected. 3) Life is beautiful why stress.

So you may be asking why the ponderings? Simple life.! Ok Ill explain better it all started with going to a wedding where I ran into my close friend from growing up. Wow how life changes. I swear it was just yesterday we were having Tuesday Buffets, Monopoly marathons and making videos. (Yes we were a little strange.) And now my friends are married, having babies or getting married.

So I cant help it this made me stop and think about my life. Now this was a fun adventure.

Lets rewind a year.

This time last year I was working at Ballet West, hating my job I must admit. My quest was to get out of my job. And being typical me I was seeking a drastic change. I had plans to move in the fall back up to Utah State and finish my history degree and go on and get a teaching degree. Huge change I know. Well as would be expected a rushed decision is never really good so I had my doubts.

With doubts in tow I headed off with my family on a vacation to sunny Southern California. Here we spent a lot of time playing on the beach and consequently thinking. (If you haven’t noticed I do this a lot, I must say I have a natural talent to think) Well the end result of my thinking was this. Stay where you are, stay the course you have chosen. So I did.

What can I say Heavenly Father gave direction I followed. Little did I know what was to come.

When I got home life continued. Still hated my job and was wondering why that answer. But I engaged in living my life. I ran races, hung out with friends and went on a multitude of blind dates, my cousins Ben’s doing.

Then came the hard day in July when I lost my job. At first I was very discouraged, frustrated and confused. To be expected I guess. Well I set out on a job hunt and to continue on with life not wanting to wallow in self pity.

A few days after losing my job I went to Lagoon with my sorority for our Annual Lagoon Day. I went for some relief from the stress I was under, little did I know what was to conspire.

Shortly into my day I meet Jonny Miller. Hmmm yes most of you know what happened here. Lets say it was the beginnings of a whirlwind romance. We started dating, he confessed his love to me, and we started thinking about the future. So to say the least we where no longer dating to date but to see if marriage was a possibility. Honest answer he told me a lot he would love to get married in the coming June. More honest confessions, we talked future plans, kids, etc. Wow was I ever caught off guard. I was thinking hmm is it finally my turn, I was loving the relationship and I was excited for the future.

But then as quickly as I thought it was my turn things started going weird in our relationship. With out to many details I was beginning to worry about the relationship. I started to wonder if it was me freaking out over such a relationship or what. But in the end after a lot of praying I knew I had to end the relationship.

So there is the first funny twists in my year. But on it went. I got a great job at Utah Domestic Violence Council, ran a couple of marathons, enjoyed a winter of skiing, more time this year with out having a hernia to set me back. Finally gave in and got my wisdom teeth out. Well more like they were growing in so out they had to come.

As spring approached I got my hopes up and heart set on getting a call to serve as an officer in my sorority. I prayed daily for it. Well when the callings where issued I did not receive my hearts desire. But a week later I got called into my bishops office to receive a new calling. I got called to be a visiting teaching supervisor. As I sat their and listened to Br. Craige explain the calling and it entailed I got such an overwhelming feeling of piece that this is where I need to be. That some how this calling holds the answers to my prayers and hearts desires, or at least is the doorway I have been looking for. Once again another twist in my life and year.

All I know is that as hard as the last few months have been, truth a combo of weird ex-boyfriend situations, friends getting married and having kids I have never felt happier. All I can say is that I keep having this feeling that good things are coming. That the answers I have been praying for are on there way. Yes I know it may be months or years but the answers are coming and are coming daily. Good things are on the way.

So what was my realization listening to Heavenly Father brings about huge changes in plans. First I could have been up at Utah State. Second, the huge funny kicker, is right now I could be either married or planning a marriage. Wow!!!

The point though. Heavenly Father is there and hears our prayers. He knows best and following his love and advice life can change daily and unexpectedly but always for the best, if even at the time you feel it cant be good.