Im a Believer

I know I have mentioned this before but I love music, especially country and musicals (and on ocasion other songs with good messages.) I love when I find a song that tells it how it is or has a great message.

Lately I have ran across two songs that do just this. One is "I Have a Dream" from Mama Mia. I love that song because of how true it is. Dreams give us something to hold onto and hope for when things get tough and they can and really do see us through. All we have to do is hold and know they will come true.

The second song I ran into the other day when I bought Jimmy Wayne's new CD. Its called a "True Believer" When I heard this song I had to play it time and time again because it fit so perfectly in my life.

To tie the two together so it makes some sense. The biggest dream in my life, with out going into to much detail. Is simply this: I dream each day of finding someone who loves and appreciates me. Some one who when they hold me close I know the world stops, or that at least our love will see us through. Someone who when they look at me I can see how much they treasure me. I dream of oneday finding a man who when ever he thinks of me he stops and thinks to himself wow I am the luckiest. I dream of finding the one who simply treats me right. Where love trully is the center of our relationship and existence. Where nothing else matters but the other one. I also dream of being and giving the same thing in return. (I could go on and on but I think you get the point)

Well sadly this is not what I seem to find all that often. When I was dating Jonny I had parts of it but not the whole thing. I remember at first I thought this will work, but eventually in my heart I knew I was selling out on my dream and I just could not do it. As I prayed to know what was right I just know that my dream would be realized I just had to hold on. I had to keep believing in the dreaming, holding on and hoping. I know I had to let the dream carry me through until I found the one, as hard as it may get. (Allowing dreams to see you through would be the Mama Mia part)

But the song "True Believer" just fit so perfectly. Read the lyrics and you will know why.

Nobody but me to blameFor losing all this love
Hope is the greatest expectation
And I never knew how to give up

Hand full of promises I can’t hold
Old love letters that just lie
You might have tried to break me down
You might have seen me cryI,
I’m not foolish and I’m not blindI
did what I could, I stood in the rain
And I waited for love to be kind
With a heart that didn’t die
It just feels a little deeper
So don’t worry about me
Cause more than anything I am a true believer

I get up every day
I think of you more than I should
I won’t let you disgrace the whole human race
I believe people are goodI,
I just say it was all for the best
I won’t compromise and I won’t close my eyes
And pretend I can live with less
I’ll just say goodbye to the way I thought that we were
I won’t give up on the world

Cause more than anything
I believe in a love bigger than us
I believe it’s so strong that I just gotta trust
I’d give all that I have I believe it so much
I, I believe in something heavenly
With all the mistakes and the pain that love takes
I still believe in what it could be
There’s a Godly sound
Talking to all us sinners

So don’t worry about me ‘cause that’s all that I need
Don’t worry about me ‘cause that’s all that I need
I am a true believer
Nobody but me to blame
For losin’ all this love
Hope is the greatest expectation
And I’ll never learn how to give up

Ill admit the past year I have been alittle afraid of love, more of getting hurt again. But when ever I would/do start to feel down I think about the exact message of this song. True love is out there. What I believe in and seek for is. I just can not settle for less. As a message I learned from What I Like About You (yes I learn from strange places) Its a brave and strong thing to be able to turn from setteling for part of your dream to hope that the whole dream will be fullfiled. Dont settle.

Yes I may have been afraid of getting hurt, and still am and probably always will be. But my dream is out there and its calling me on. Now I have to strive for it.