Great Songs and a Great Life

I have not been updating to much lately. Mostly because I have been doing a lot of thinking the past couple of months, plus I have not been up to much lately.

I did decide to update on how my heart has been feeling lately. I have to admit the past year and half have been very entertaining. Full of highs and lows, I would have to say a lot of lows with emotions involved in dating. Ill admit I was in a place where I decided to focus on me and not so much on dating. I have to admit its been a smart decision. I have grown a lot and had a ton of fun...thanks a lot to Brittney (our girl nights have been a huge help and bonus.)

Part of my holding back on dating was a total secret wish that the past could change and be made right again. But over the last couple of months I have come to realize that I did not care so much about that any more. With out being awar of it my heart was closing the door to the past and preparing for the future. As I have written my little brother about, in a lot of my letters to him. My heart and mind keep feeling like the future and blessings are right infront of me waiting to be handed to me. Well a few weeks ago, or maybe a month or so ago, I decided I was ready. I made the decission to dable in the future, risk getting hurt, put trust in others and love again. I decided it was risk being hurt to find love and the future.

So all that said. I bought the new Keith Urban CD, yea I know your thinking wow she is relating life to a song again. But I seem to do this a lot.

Here are two songs from his CD that totally discribe how I have been feeling.

"If I Could Ever Love"
I used to cry out in the middle of the night Baby hold me tight But there was no one beside me when I opened my eyes Now I turn the corner of those days and nights Something inside me changed and I think I might Be starting over I don't wanna run Oh no, cause you might be the one, baby If ever I could love I think it could be with you If ever thought I found somebody so true I wonder if you feel The same way that I do If ever I could love I think it could be with you You know I can't read your mind love But it seems to me That your heart and mine tonight are Defying gravity There's something so familiar And still so unknown The closer we get I swear it feels like coming home And I'm ready to be brave Oh yea and you look at me say If ever I could love I think it could be with you If ever thought I found somebody so true I wonder if you feel The same way that I do If ever I could love I think it could be with you If ever I could love If ever I could love If ever I could love If ever I could be If ever I could love Oh yeah no way If ever I could love I think it could be with you If ever thought I found somebody so true I wonder if you feel The same way that I do If ever I could love I think it could be with you I was scared to love again Till the day that came When she walked out of my life I got hurt so bad I swear i'd never let another inside this heart of mine But you touch my hand and every plan that I had Disappeared like a fallen star There's a new beginning and i'm moving to the rhythm Of a beating braver heart A braver heart If ever I could love, oh oh If ever I could love, yea yea

"Kiss A Girl" - Ok its the concept behind this song. I get it Im a girl, but its the idea behind the song.

To kiss and tellIt’s just not my styleBut the night is youngAnd it’s been a whileAnd she broke my heartBroke it right in twoAnd it’s fixing timeBut I’m feeling like I’m finally ready toFind, find somebody new
I wanna kiss a girl,I wanna hold her tight,And maybe make a little magic in the moonlightDon’t wanna go too farJust to take it slow,But I shouldn’t be lonely in this big ol’ worldI wanna kiss a girl
It’s that moment whenYou start closing inFirst you’re holding back,Then surrenderingIt can start a fire,Light up the skySuch a simple thing,Do you wanna try?Are you ready toSay goodbyeTo all these blues?
I wanna kiss a girl,I wanna hold her tight,And maybe make a little magic in the moonlightDon’t wanna go too farJust to take it slow,But I shouldn’t be lonely in this big ol’ worldI wanna kiss a girl
‘Cause, baby, tonightIt could turn into the rest of our livesOh yeahAre you ready?(Are you ready?)Are you ready(Are you ready)To cross that yellow line?Put your lips on minePut your lips on mine, baby
Do you wanna try?Are you ready toSay goodbyeTo all these blues?
I wanna kiss a girl,I wanna hold her tight,And maybe make a little magic, babyDon’t wanna go too farJust to take it slow,I don’t want to be lonely,I shouldn’t be lonelyI wanna kiss a girl,I wanna hold her tight,And maybe make a little magic in the moonlightDon’t wanna go too farJust to take it slow,But I shouldn’t be lonely in this big ol’ worldI wanna kiss a girl
I said I wanna kiss a girlWhoa-ho whoa-hoI wanna kiss a girlI wanna hold her tight,I wanna make a little magicOut under the moonlight
Oooh I wanna kiss a girl.