On Being An Adult

I love being an adult. I love the freedom. I love the confidence of knowing I am providing for my self and making my own life. But....

Sometimes I don't like being am adult. It can be hard and draining .

I dont like the unknown. I don't like being in the spot I am in. I don't like that I don't know if and when I will get married. What a said marriage will bring.

I dont like that the current reality and situation is such that I am approaching and still single. I want to move out. I dont have the income to support my self fully. Two years ago it wasn't an issue I was dating and had been in two relationships where I thought there was a future so I wasn't to worried about it. But now I am.

Trying to find a higher paying job and a good career path is hard and wearing on the soul. Not knowing the next steps to take is hard. Do I go back to school? Do I get licensed? Do I just don't care and stay? Do I move with in the state employment? Do I move to a new state?

It's just so overwhelming and hard when you don't have a hint at what the future will bring and when.