Spooktacular Fun of a Weekend

Yet another great weekend with Kyle has come and gone (and Im a little slow to blog about it).

This past weekend was full of fall fun!

Friday night was yet another BYU game (can I say I love this time of year) Having grown up in a BYU family I have grown used to men who get way into games (a little cynical and over the top at times) So when I found out that Kyle is a die hard BYU fan I was like cool I know what to expect. However, every game Kyle surprises me. During the games you can tell that he gets into them...but his laid back nature kicks in and he is much calmer and not as cynical as I am used to. Its way more fun watching games with Kyle. It is a shame though that BYU had to lose this week. Maybe...well hopefully this weeks bye game will help make a difference.

Saturday was a nother fun filled day. In the morning Kyle helped my mom attempt to get the Christmas lights on. After getting the whole top roff done the string of lights kept burning out and it was decided to take them all down. It was fun though to see yet again Kyle's true nature coming out. He was so patient about and happy to help my mom through it all. Over and over again she told me Kendra you choose a keeper. All I could think was I am so blessed and lucky to have Kyle. He is so laid back, loving and helpful with these things. You can so see his true laid back happy nature coming out and I love it!! I have dated guys that are so so oppisite of me in these areas that it gets hard and weird at times that I am laid back and dont over stress. But Kyle is a natural compliment to who I am. I love that!! I love that he loves my nature and I love his and that we fit and compliment each other so well!!!

That afternoon we went on a fun adventure to J and J Nursery. Yes I am a weirdo that actually loves nurserys and home imporvement stores but man it was fun seeing Kyle there. He got so excited about the koi ponds and waterfalls. He was like a little boy making future plans and dreams. Yes one day I would love to have a waterfeature in my yard (hint hint)

Saturday night we went with my family to Syracuses pumpkin walk, had a yummy dinner and treats that Heidi made us all. Yes the pumpkin walk proved to be kind of lame compared to the one in Logan. But Kyle was a good tropper and we had so much fun!! My favorite part was watching him interact with Dax. Man Im so blessed to have found a loving laid back guy that is so good with kids. You are going to be such an amazing father and I am so blessed to be with you! I love that when Kyle is playing with Dax he becomes a little kid him self.

Sunday was a funfilled day of big mile stones and starting a lot of things we need to take care of in the coming months. Church was so good though on Sunday. I loved hearing Pres McKay talk in stake conference. He helped me see the nature of God in a way I hadnt thought of before. Here is some excited Sunday news...I will be leaving the singles wards scene now. Kyle and I will be going to my home ward!! Its just going to make paper work and recomends a lot easier. Plus after 7 years I need to be adapted back into a family ward I think.

Sunday wasnt all serious stuff....we got to carve our pumpkins.!!

Got to say I love this time of year!

To My Kyle

To my wonderful Kyle.

Last night my favorite song came onto the radio and it made me think of you and want to take a minute to thank you for what you have done for me in my life.

As you know babe the last two and half years of my life were the hardest of my life. I went through life trials in that time I never imagined going through. I spent a long time in a relationship that tried and tested me to levels I could not have imagined. When I was brave enough and strong enough to put it all behind me I found my self in a hard sometimes honestly dark spot.

This summer I found my self in a place I never imagined I could find my self. I was lost, confused and honestly at times with out hope. I did not know how to put things behind me and how to move forward. But I trusted our Heavenly Father and turned to him for guidance. He started healing the hurt and helped me move forward and made me strong enough to face the future. But Ill admit the pain and hurt was still there. The feeling like hope something fading and hard to grasp was there.

Then you came into my life. The night you took me to Scoopology (ps hint hint Im taking you there this weekend...seems only fitting right now) and for the best night of conversation in my life. You put your self out there and risked getting hurt. I put my self out there too. We both meet each other with trust being something that would be hard to earn. But you broke through those walls...quickly. I dont think I had much of a chance after that night. I knew I was going to be falling in love with you! I knew things were going to be differnt, deeper and stronger with you! You were all ready better then I could imagine and I knew it could only be more amazing then anything I could have imagined in my life.

When I went home that night I knelt down in prayer with a tear filled peaceful feeling in my heart! I thanked God he gave me you!

Kyle meeting you and being with you everything became right again. The hurt of the past. The pain caused by others. The testing of my soul. And the hope that all but fleeted away came rushing back at me. Everything was right again and everything bad seemed as it never happened. You have made me a stronger person. You have helped me find the person I was before all the hurt and trials. However, you have found a stronger version then I was before.

You make me happy. You make me feel loved and cheerished. You make me feel attractive again. You make me want to be a better person. You make me excited about my future. You are my light and I love you!!

Thank you for these beautiful flowers babe. They sit on my dresser and I love waking up and falling asleep to them every day. I love seeing and smelling them in my room. They make feel filled with my love for you. Thank you babe!!














Now to the lyrics of my favorite song. The lyrics are so fitting to how I feel...and better yet they are by my favorite artist..Blake Shelton.

"God Gave Me You"
I’ve been a walking heartache.
I’ve made a mess of me.
The person that I’ve been lately Ain’t who I wanna be.
But you stay here right beside me.
And watch as the storm blows through.
And I need you.

Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs.
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you
Gave me you

There’s more here than what we’re seeing
A divine conspiracy
That you, an angel lovely
Could somehow fall for me
You’ll always be love’s great martyr
And I’ll be the flattered fool
And I need you

God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you

On my own I’m only
Half of what I could be
I can’t do without you
We are stitched together
And what love has tethered
I pray we never undo

Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you, gave me you.
He gave me you.

I love you Kyle!

Stones...They Come in All Shapes, Sizes and Values

Did I mention I have an amazing boyfriend?

Well if not I do!!

Last week was fall break for Utah Valley University which meant no homework!! So Kyle decided to head up to Kaysville Thursday after work so we could just play and enjoy some time together. I have to say I love these little laid back evenings. We went and ran errands, got ice-cream then he watched Hawaii Five-O with me so I can stay caught up on one of the two shows I actually watch regularly. When he headed home I thought, what a perfect night!! I got to spend it with the one I love and then get to see him again Friday night to kick off our weekend of fun!

Oh but I was so wrong....we got to spend all weekend together. How is that.... Well after looking at rings and pretty stones on Wednesday Kyle decided he needed a stone of his own. How is that?...He got a kidney stone yes thats right a kidney stone.

Shortly after leaving my house to head home I get a text from Kyle that he was in the ER....can I say minor heart attache when I got that text! So I headed down to save my boy!! Oh and how fun that was. As the morphine kicked in he got so stinking funny and out of it! Finally he was released from the hospital and I got to take him home!! There was no way he was going to be able to drive home to Provo or that I would let him. So he got to come and spend the night at our place. Come Friday morning it was clear Kyle wasnt going to work and still needed someone to care for him so I called into work and took a sick day to take care of my sick Boyfriend!! Man it was a great day. When he was able to drive we headed back down to Orem for the night.

Kyle took me to a yummy Mexican Restaurant called Los Harmanos. Best Strawberry Lemonade ever!!! After we needed to walk off dinner so we headed to the mall to exchange my jeans for a better size. Man it was fun shopping with my man. For starters the jeans being selected by a guy meant they would be attractive to him and his reaction when I tried them on was priceless!! Yes babe I love my Kyle jeans!!! After we headed to his place to watch a funny stupid movie. Kyle finds it shameful and sad that I have not seen his funny stupid movies he quotes all the time so it was time to start educating me....tonight's viewing "Zoolander" Ok I have to say it funny funny movie.

Saturday was another fun and perfect day with Kyle...we went to the BYU game. Yes it was hot and yes it was a little boring when BYU was creaming Idaho. But I love seeing all sides of Kyle at sports games based on who he is with. After the game we went shopping to pick up groceries for some nights in for cooking. This weekend I made him yummy Chicken Alfredo and on Sunday we made Home Made Chicken Cordon Blue!! Yummy!!! Thanks baby for introducing me to yummy artichokes.

Best part of the weekend......Funfetti Cake Cookie Mix and getting to talk to Kyles parents on the phone. It was good to see that they can tell how much I care for their son, what I have done for him in his life and appreciate me for it...what a relief for me.

What did I learn this weekend about the man I love this weekend:
*He handles people in such a good way. Even when things didnt go well at the store he didnt get mad at the employee. Impressive babe. Like I told you I find it so attractive that you arent cynical towards people.
*You can handle pain in sickness in a funny and strong way!! Yes I could tell you were in pain but you were still so loving and caring towards me and grateful I was there. I could still see your love even before the morphine kicked in. And I love that babe...it helps me see the depth of your love. Yes you caused me panic and realize I never ever want to lose you that you complete me and are huge in my life!! I love you sweetheart and I love that I got to care for you this weekend; you take such good care of me every day.
*You handle INTENSE BYU fans, even your good friends, without getting intense back at them. You are great at just accepting others view and going your won way!!
*You are an amazing cook!!!
*And our parents are just going to have to accept that we love funfetti cake!!!

Shiny Things...Strawberry Limades and Smiles

I love my Wednesday night dates with Kyle. There is one crazy upside to our meeting part way on Wednesdays we get to spend a lot of time talking on those days. Yea we go to dinner and do something fun but also spend a lot of time in his car talking.

This Wednesday was kind of fun. We went to dinner at Chilies (I love 2 for $20 deals) after dinner we went and looked at some sparkly shinny items. Yes more to come in time I promise. Ill tell all I promise.

After our adventure we went to Fashion Place to burn some time and walk around. He had fun watching me try on and look at shiny fun pretty items. Well can I say he was just as giddy and excited when he tried on Oakley’s (I know spelling). I get why guys get excited and happy watching us try on pretty items…it was so fun watching him get excited over sunglasses he really wants.

After playing in the mall we decided to head to sonic (yes people Strawberry and Cherry Limeades are oh so good!) They will help me wean my self off of Limerickys.

Last night though Kyle and I had a really really good talk one I don’t want to forget. My heart soul knows future with Kyle is the right thing and so amazing and good. I melt inside every time I think about him and every time I pray for conformation I get gitty butterflies and excitement in my tummy and now how right it is. When I see him and pray about him my heart melts. But man Ill admit I get scared…my mind has way of trying to scare me out of good things. It does it a lot…dang self.

The point is we started by talking about this. I realized something last night God speaks to out heart and our soul….if our gut says its good and we have a burning feeling of peace we know its right. Satan is the one who messes with our heads. He does not want us to start a strong and good family.

But we got talking about us and our relationship and how we feel. What I want to remember is this:

When ever I am with Kyle I get so smiley, gitty excited and happy. He can always make me laugh and smile. When ever I know its about time for him to get to my place or I am driving to meet him I get butterflies of excitement in my tummy. Every time he calls at night I want to just start laughing and smiling. When I am at home waiting for his call and not texting him so he can study I get bored and ancy just wanting him there and to be talking to him. Kyle makes me just so happy, glowing and at peace. Being with him makes me so so excited for our future. When we get together things are so easy and natural….we have morphed into a boring married couple and love it! Its fun just being with him and I don’t ever grow bored. We can talk for hours and just have fun. We have so much in common that its easy to find things to do (just not money to do it all).

Kyle is also an amazing priesthood holder who has made the hard choices to put his commitment to God and Family first even when the decision tore him to pieces. Kyle talks about his dreams and desires of how he wants to lead out his family in a close relationship with the Lord. He wants to be sealed for all eternity. When he plays with Dax he tells me how excited he is to have his own kids. In Kyle I see a loving father, husband and priesthood leader.

In Kyle I have gotten what I have always wanted and imagined. He treats me right, he loves me, he cares for me. We can communicate and be comfortable together. He makes laugh and smile and gets me excited to see him. In Kyle I want to put him and our relationship first. In Kyle I see a strong priesthood holder and amazing father.

I have fallen in love with his silly quireky things. Some being: he loves reeses puffs, Lion King, Mini Golf, Fall, Funfettie cake, is way into traditions, loves yummy drinks, loves lunchables, etc. They are all little quirks I have that drive my mom crazy and he has them too. He is also a little kid at heart just like me and I love it!!!

But what makes Kyle stand about above and beyond any guy I have ever dated. Why I choose Kyle and want him to be in my life forever and ever is…….

Before meeting Kyle my life was in a hard messed up place. I couldn’t always make sense of it. I felt hurt and lost. But when Kyle walked into my life I went home and cried to Heavenly Father that everything feels so right again. Peace and love came flying back into my life. Light came back. Every time he walks into a room I light up inside. He makes me whole and complete. I can talk to him about the hard stuff with out ending up in a hard place. When I talk to him it all is right and good again. I feel the strength and support of his love and light. Kyle brings into my life what no one has ever done before. I love him and am for ever greatful he is in my life.




(So side not to blogging…I know that some people feel that blogs are public so we shouldn’t talk about or emotions or personal feelings. I have chosen to blog for two reasons. I am better at it then journaling and it helps me only focus on the good, when I journal I often vent. But the biggest being is yes it gives me a chance to talk about the personal. I have lots of friends and family who live far away and I want them to know these personal feelings cause I cant always talk about it with them.)

The Upside to Crashing My Car

So last weekend on my way to meet up with Kyle at his place in Orem I managed to rear end a car...whoops!!! I was a little lost and a little excited to meet up with Kyle. Usually nothing ever good comes from wrecking ones car...but this time it has a flip side. My wonderful boyfriend felt bad that I am having to borrow my parents cars so......he came up and spent the whole weekend at my house!!!

So how was the weekend spent....

On Friday night we had a yummy dinner at Pepper Bellies in Kaysville. Then we went Mini Golfing with Matt and his date. How meant to be are Kyle and I?...well we tied at Mini Golf! After mini golf we set in for a scary movie night...aka Kyles sneaky way to get me to cuddle up and hold on to him. Well Insidious was the lamest not scary movie ever...Dont see it!!!

Saturday morning we headed up for a hike up Adams Canyon. Sadly we didnt make it to the end cause my leg was a little sore and Kyle didnt want me to re-stress fracture it...amazingly caring right. And Kyle was so kind to run my on all my errands.
Kyle still loves makeup free messy hair not showered out in the wild Kendra.

And I love him!!

Why...cause he loves Funfettie cake!

Why....he lets me cheat at mini-golf.

Why....He is now addicted to Lime Rickys too!!


Why....He loves me and makes me so so happy!!
Why...Cause he keeps me safe in Haunted Houses...yep I forgot to mention we visited Nightmare on 13th Street!

Why...He is so HOT!!

Why...cause we can spend a whole weekend together chilling and still not grow bored of each other!

Movie Night With Kyle

So I am not got at bloggin, journal writing or much history keeping at all. But I always have this little guilt whisperor that sits on my shoulder telling me I need to be better. So I am going to try and be better.

I love my Wednesday night dates with Kyle. It would be so so nice if he lived closer but he doesnt...or I guess I could live closer to him. But he lives in Provo and I live in Kaysville. So we made a plan...on Wednesdays we meet part way. Oh its lead to creative dates..but I love them.

This week Kyle and I actually went to a movie. Crazy I know but we have never succeded in watching a movie together. We always end up talking. So this time we tried going to a movie. We went and saw 50/50 after a yummy dinner at Rumbi. I loved the movie..and the food but I loved the company more.

I love how when Kyle and I are together I get this warm fuzy inside and my heart just melts and I know its all right. I know at those times that Kyle is Heavenly Father's blessing to me. As we learned in conference God is aware of us and our needs and will answer our prayers at the right time and right place. And that is what Kyle is...an answer to prayers. When I am with him and I am my giddy little kid happy self and feel so loved and wanted. When I am with Kyle everything feels right and all the bad of the last couple of years just melt away. I am so so glad I get him in my life for now and ever and ever and ever.

Oh Where Did The Happy Day Posts Go......

Man oh man Im not good with these daily blog posts. Go figure. Not that I am surprised at all.

But this time I have a really good reason.

This reason:
Takes me mini golfing

Goes along with my crazy date ideas like mini drive in movies

Loves the same pizzas I do (makes CPK even better then before)

Tells me every single days (and lots of times at that) how much he cares for me

Calls and gushes to his mom about me after dates

Sends me a good morning text tell wish me a good day at work

Takes me for ice cream even though he does not like it much

Tells me about is past and what he wants in the future

Supports and teases me at the same time when I manage to wreck my car on the way to his house

Gives up his bed for me to sleep in so I did not have to drive home way late at night in BYU traffic

Is a HUGE BYU fan

Is patient with my inability to make decisions

Love me when I am dressed in a t-shirt and sweats or all dolled up

Calls me just to hear my voice

Makes me laugh and smile and all melted inside

And so so much more!!

I am so glad you are in my life Kyle.

Happy Day 36-45

Man I'm bad at this. But the challenge was to come up with 100 good things from the day or things I'm grateful for.

36....Daxton's first birthday!!
37.... conversations with an amazing guy that make your day every day
38....Totally perfect dates. Miniature golf, dinner and laying under the stars come one people it's perfect
39...Fall coming. Yes it's struggling but fall is trying to come!!!
40...Running 5 minutes straight. Kind of pathetic when I used to be running 10+ miles on saturdays. But it's a building up process after my stress fracture
41....Earning admin leave as a thanks for being smart and willing to always go above and beyond with my job
42...those amazing Sunday's that are answers to your prayers
43...the circus
44...pedicures
45....an amazing BYU game against Utah State. What a way to pull it off!!!