Thoughts I Want to Always Remember

My wedding is only in three more days!!! I can believe it.

I have looked forward to this day, well the idea of it for years but never thought for sure it would come. Over the years I had gotten involved in some long and complicated relationship. Each left a hole in my heart and soul that I never thought could be healed. Each left me way discouraged and confused. Ill be honest I never thought I would get married and if I ever did I was sure it would be with some guy that I had to settle for becuase it was the only chance to get married.

Last summer began with me feeling overly discouraged and heartbroken for many reasons with no hope on the horizon. Ill be honest I felt lost and confused about life. I didnt know where to go or how to put one foot in front of the other because I didnt know where to go or what I wanted. All I knew is that reality was hard and I didnt like it.

But deep down I had a tiny flicker of hope. For what I didnt know.

So at the time I decided to plan for a future of my own. I started looking into what I needed to do to improve my future. A lot of things, almost everything seemed to fall through. But I knew I needed to keep pressing forward one day at a time and explore a new option when each one failed.

Then last fall the best thing happened to me. A friend, that I will always hold a special place for in my heart for what he brought into my life, introduced me to the greatest man a live....Kyle.

On our first date I knew that everything in my future was going to be changing, brighter and fall into place. I knew in him there was future.... a grandur one then I could have ever imagined.

I have fallen in love with his tender heart, his love for me, his laid back and fun personality...and so much more.

Each day my love grows deeper and founder. A life with out him unimaginable...my future with him is full of only hope, excitement and lots and lots of love.

As I am approaching the dawn of wedding I find there are moments during the day where I stop and think. My heart gets full of excitement and love and total impatience for our wedding. I stop and imagine looking at him across the alter and my heart just melts with love. Inside of me I feel so much hope, brightness and peace for this amazing man I have found. When I picture this moment my heart melt with love and butterflies stir excitment in my stomach.

Right now is one of those moment...and I knew I needed to record it so I would never ever forget.

In a few short days I get to marry the man of my dreams...what I always imagined and so much more.